it feels weird...second week where finally, i mean FINALLY, i have a peace. slowly i sorted out my problems, rid of people which are like snakes in the grass. i don't know why but i was stupid over and over again. i had a choice and always i've chosen the worse possibility. why? i was keep asking myself and answer was always the same - because this time could be different...
now, it's like i could finally see clearly without unnecessary emotions which always lead me wrong to be honest. 
i know that i lost hell a lot of time...and won't have back..
today i was talking with a person whose life was fucking in pieces but despite that he managed to shack off this shit and not move on but build entire life again. it took him a while but he did it. now he's ...very good. simple - very good. i wish to be the same. and i know that i will be...just need more time and focus on it. 
how to describe happiness? i don't know...for so many years i learnt how to keep my head above water that i...don't or maybe didn't know how to be happy. i stop to believe in silly fairy tales. they don't happen to me. 
i want to be a person who i am inside. so, come on! come outside....come on!! 
more confidence, knowledge, peace and everything will be fantastic..i know that. he could do that so am i.